After the big drama about trying Fraser in his own room and us just not being ready, apart from being ill last week, he still isnt settling in our bed. He has a small cot beside my bed and he asks to go in it after feeds, so this is a good compromise for us. I dont want him to sleep in a cot, he has kind of chosen this himself so that makes it easier to go with.
I have had his room almost done now for a few weeks and its literally sitting there waiting for him. Beautiful safari animal theme with a nursing chair, cuddly toys and lovely things, all placed and arranged with lots of love and thought, but it lies empty and every night I pass by it and put him in our room.
Tonight however, I needed to tidy our room and put the new furniture in whilst the kiddies were asleep, so on the off chance he might settle in his own room just until I sort our room out, I fed him in the nursing chair and put him in his own big cot. He rolled over, went to sleep and is still asleep now!
You would think this would be music to my ears, I should be enjoying it and rellieved that it was so easy.... oddly no... I feel uneasy and at 2am I am sat here writing this rather than go to bed without him... am I never happy?!?
We will see how we both feel tomorrow, it might be back to sleeping beside mummy. I am quite happy to do what he wants and go with it when he is ready. I think the process of moving from mum and dads room and bed to his own room and cot is going to be a gradual process and maybe we both needs nights like these to ease us in gently.
Kelly ann xx
